So I had my first 10th grade honors English class today. I hatehatehatehate sitting in the front row! Geewiz, I don't enjoy being smack-dab in front of her face, I can't help but stare at her prominent double chin. She seems decent right? But, grr, I hate hearing repetition. Just another one of my ocds.
She has this weird thing about her. She must have had some bad experiences or something, because when she said "some people" she scowls ferociously, rawr.
I am still a loner in a big ocean. I haven't met anyone spectacular worthy of my presence. jk ;)
-leaves
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
The First Day of School Whoopdidooda
I felt that since today was a special day, it warranted a post. Unfortunately, I cannot claim that today was any more than a completely-fucked-up-worst-day-of-my-life kind of day *smiles sickeningly sweetly*. Dude, I got my fuckin' red river at school and I had stomach aches all day. I went to first period after homeroom and confronted my 1* English teacher after going all the way to her class - I was so embarrassed. It went a little bit like this:
Me: So uhh, you're still teaching 1* English Honors right?
Clinton: Yeah, I still am.
Me: So uhhh, could I go in and sit down, I'm in your class.
Clinton: Actually, this period is my prep period, I won't see you until tomorrow honey.
Me: Oh, haha, of course. Yeah, well, you didn't have to tell me! I mean you know, I just came here...to check...to see- to see if you were teacher English Honors, um you know...to meet my teachers...so I'm gonna go to class now..ehehe...
Shoot my fuckin' brain now.
Haha, well that is over and dealt with. Needed to get that out of my system.
So I'll organize how my day went by periods:
Homeroom: Weird sub. A-W-K-W-A-R-D. My friends were just like: "Hey can I see your schedule again?" "Yeah sure my classes changed" "oh we're not in any classes together! That sucks!" "So I'm gonna go back to my seat now and wallow in my own pathetic loner-ness because its exhausting to talk to you right now" (Oh, that was what I was thinking...)
2*: Adv Algebra Honors - De Los Reyes
Hmmm, I'm wondering if I bit off more than I can choke on. Hopefully I will do okay in her class. She is incredibly young, and different from what I expected. The class was incredibly (I know I already said this) A-W-K-W-A-R-D. I didn't know anyone and everyone seemed focused on their work (as the good little Chinese girls they were) or talking in their own little preordained groups/cliques. We got our billion pound books on the first day, lalala, I feel emo.
3* P.E. - Wert
Well. BORING. Christina is in my class so I thought "oh this won't be too bad, I can chat with Christina all period" but we got assigned seating (by alphabetical order of course) and we were separated by many many chairs. It was awkward once again as I looked around at potential people I could converse with. NADA. That was a very long period.
4* French - Focherio
Tough. Well, I might be able to learn something, she decided she won't speak English to us anymore. Assigned seating by name again, separated from Erika. Uneventful.
Lunch - I am such a loner, its sad. I saw Jane next to the tree so I approached, and Bartho came and greeted us. We hung out for the rest of the short period. It was cool. I enjoy hanging out with them. Less receptive people are awesome, you can just stand in silence and you don't actually need to exert any effort at maintaining a stable conversation without it getting awkward. I just love run-on complex sentences.
5* Modern World - The Lady (forgot name)ooh I remember...Blinick I think
In the first 10 minutes, my first impression of her was: B-I-T-C-H. Later on I found another BITCH target, this stupid girl who whistles and mutters 'fuck' at random times, and is one of those people who give everyone shit. She is like those gangster smart mouths that are hecka stupid. If you're gonna be a smart mouth, at least be relatively articulate and have some sort of intelligence to back up the shit you're giving the teacher. The teacher turned out to be okay. I like history, so maybe I'll like her a little bit. Although her head wrinkle mark makes her look evil *shrugs* whatever. Oh, and its good to have an openly gay teacher (I think, she said partner so I assumed).
6* Biology - Amaral (but today it was Colonel something as sub)
Very awkward and yeah didn't know anyone. The two people at my table became fast friends and in the end they talked about their experiences on drugs. Not just weed, but going to raves and doing hard stuff. Dude, its just stupid. The guy was like, a freshman. I feel too awkward to attempt to join in. I don't and never intend to try drugs.
I am fucked in the butt (as someone wisely quoted)
Hopefully this first day isn't foreshadowing my future sophmore year or I'll seriously need to get either a hobby or another therapist.
-Leafer (but not drugs)
Me: So uhh, you're still teaching 1* English Honors right?
Clinton: Yeah, I still am.
Me: So uhhh, could I go in and sit down, I'm in your class.
Clinton: Actually, this period is my prep period, I won't see you until tomorrow honey.
Me: Oh, haha, of course. Yeah, well, you didn't have to tell me! I mean you know, I just came here...to check...to see- to see if you were teacher English Honors, um you know...to meet my teachers...so I'm gonna go to class now..ehehe...
Shoot my fuckin' brain now.
Haha, well that is over and dealt with. Needed to get that out of my system.
So I'll organize how my day went by periods:
Homeroom: Weird sub. A-W-K-W-A-R-D. My friends were just like: "Hey can I see your schedule again?" "Yeah sure my classes changed" "oh we're not in any classes together! That sucks!" "So I'm gonna go back to my seat now and wallow in my own pathetic loner-ness because its exhausting to talk to you right now" (Oh, that was what I was thinking...)
2*: Adv Algebra Honors - De Los Reyes
Hmmm, I'm wondering if I bit off more than I can choke on. Hopefully I will do okay in her class. She is incredibly young, and different from what I expected. The class was incredibly (I know I already said this) A-W-K-W-A-R-D. I didn't know anyone and everyone seemed focused on their work (as the good little Chinese girls they were) or talking in their own little preordained groups/cliques. We got our billion pound books on the first day, lalala, I feel emo.
3* P.E. - Wert
Well. BORING. Christina is in my class so I thought "oh this won't be too bad, I can chat with Christina all period" but we got assigned seating (by alphabetical order of course) and we were separated by many many chairs. It was awkward once again as I looked around at potential people I could converse with. NADA. That was a very long period.
4* French - Focherio
Tough. Well, I might be able to learn something, she decided she won't speak English to us anymore. Assigned seating by name again, separated from Erika. Uneventful.
Lunch - I am such a loner, its sad. I saw Jane next to the tree so I approached, and Bartho came and greeted us. We hung out for the rest of the short period. It was cool. I enjoy hanging out with them. Less receptive people are awesome, you can just stand in silence and you don't actually need to exert any effort at maintaining a stable conversation without it getting awkward. I just love run-on complex sentences.
5* Modern World - The Lady (forgot name)ooh I remember...Blinick I think
In the first 10 minutes, my first impression of her was: B-I-T-C-H. Later on I found another BITCH target, this stupid girl who whistles and mutters 'fuck' at random times, and is one of those people who give everyone shit. She is like those gangster smart mouths that are hecka stupid. If you're gonna be a smart mouth, at least be relatively articulate and have some sort of intelligence to back up the shit you're giving the teacher. The teacher turned out to be okay. I like history, so maybe I'll like her a little bit. Although her head wrinkle mark makes her look evil *shrugs* whatever. Oh, and its good to have an openly gay teacher (I think, she said partner so I assumed).
6* Biology - Amaral (but today it was Colonel something as sub)
Very awkward and yeah didn't know anyone. The two people at my table became fast friends and in the end they talked about their experiences on drugs. Not just weed, but going to raves and doing hard stuff. Dude, its just stupid. The guy was like, a freshman. I feel too awkward to attempt to join in. I don't and never intend to try drugs.
I am fucked in the butt (as someone wisely quoted)
Hopefully this first day isn't foreshadowing my future sophmore year or I'll seriously need to get either a hobby or another therapist.
-Leafer (but not drugs)
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Brief Recap
So, I know I haven't posted for a while. My life hasn't been wonderful, but neither has it been terrible. I rather enjoyed this summer. Although very exhausting, I had something to do everyday not having to ponder what to do next. I think that when there is some kind of schedule that I MUST follow, I thrive. Well, anyway, the internship was pretty cool, well, we didn't do much, but we had some pretty interesting results - which brings me to the reason that I decided to do a post in the morning when nothing extraordinary has happened.
If anyone reads this, please watch this video and rate 5 stars and subscribe even if you don't like it. It's my ego okay? A comment would also be superb.
Coolio.
Ciaomein -
Littleleaf
If anyone reads this, please watch this video and rate 5 stars and subscribe even if you don't like it. It's my ego okay? A comment would also be superb.
Coolio.
Ciaomein -
Littleleaf
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Toe Pain
My toe hurts. My pinky toe on my right foot to be exact.
Today a holocost survivor visited us and told us her story. It was really interesting but I did not have time to stay to ask questions for I was in a hurry to catch the 43 bus. I made it, yet I was still out of breath. The woman - Gloria, actually escaped. She was on her way to the gas chambers but she saved herself by jumping a ditch. I am horrified with the degrading conditions.
An animal would feel violated living like that.
A bug.
A fish.
A molecule.
It honestly brings tears to my eyes - no joke. Anyways, it was incredible.
She is writing a book. I definitely need to read it.
-litto
Today a holocost survivor visited us and told us her story. It was really interesting but I did not have time to stay to ask questions for I was in a hurry to catch the 43 bus. I made it, yet I was still out of breath. The woman - Gloria, actually escaped. She was on her way to the gas chambers but she saved herself by jumping a ditch. I am horrified with the degrading conditions.
An animal would feel violated living like that.
A bug.
A fish.
A molecule.
It honestly brings tears to my eyes - no joke. Anyways, it was incredible.
She is writing a book. I definitely need to read it.
-litto
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
anger management classes may be necessary
Do you ever get so angry that your heart clenches and you feel like you can't breathe? It's a disgusting feeling.
You feel like strangling them with a chopstick.
Proving everything they say wrong.
Yell that they're utterly immature that they should act their own age?
Punch them
Uppercut
Straight punch in the fucking chin.
Adults should seriously act properly and more maturely.
What the fuck is wrong with him?
If you are old at least act it.
Who gives a shit about stuff.
Who gives a shit about humanities.
Who gives a shit about the stupid fucking people on the bottom what the fuck can we possibly do?
It's all talk! What the fuck are you doing to help? Staying at the bottom is not helping anyone. Try and going up the fucking latter and get rich - then you can donate all of the money to the poor. But of course by the time you get to that stage you won't care about those people you formerly defended - because you would no longer be one of them.
Human selfishness is unbelievable.
Fuckfuckfuckfuck.
Fuck communism.
Fuck everything!
FUCK YOU!
--
wow I feel better now
-littleleafer
You feel like strangling them with a chopstick.
Proving everything they say wrong.
Yell that they're utterly immature that they should act their own age?
Punch them
Uppercut
Straight punch in the fucking chin.
Adults should seriously act properly and more maturely.
What the fuck is wrong with him?
If you are old at least act it.
Who gives a shit about stuff.
Who gives a shit about humanities.
Who gives a shit about the stupid fucking people on the bottom what the fuck can we possibly do?
It's all talk! What the fuck are you doing to help? Staying at the bottom is not helping anyone. Try and going up the fucking latter and get rich - then you can donate all of the money to the poor. But of course by the time you get to that stage you won't care about those people you formerly defended - because you would no longer be one of them.
Human selfishness is unbelievable.
Fuckfuckfuckfuck.
Fuck communism.
Fuck everything!
FUCK YOU!
--
wow I feel better now
-littleleafer
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