madaleines

i made these absolutely fantabulous Madeleines (albeit the second batch was not as excellent as the first)!

i would like to say that "it was so easy!" but it was kind of complicated and there is butter all over the floor and it is 2AM in the morn.

I video taped a lot of the process on my new dig video camera. I will try and get a picture of the madeleines before they are gobbled up!

-Little

btw i plan to many more things! madaleines among others is going to be a partial Christmas present for a lot of people xD (man was that sentence awkward of what!?)

Purpose In Life

I will try volunteering.

I really like folding presents!

edit: wow - "folding presents"? How wired was I when I wrote this. I meant "wrapping presents" xD

Agenda

mtg for pancake breakfast

ate curry pho (mmmm so deliciousss!)

argued with mom

went home

chilled at home

went to saras house

chilled at saras house

went to dvd store and got the dvd "forgetting sarah marshall"

finished dvd

went home

chilled

cooked pasta and sauce

yumyum

brings us to the present

-littleleafer

Wellness Center

Well, I have finally went to talk to a counselor in the Wellness Center. I was really embarrassed at first as I walked through the doors and asked to see someone. It was as if I was playing the role of a disturbed child or something so I tried to remain as cheerful as possible. The resident counselors are on vacation so instead this young Asian lady said she could talk to me instead.

I explained everything to her, about my eighth grade problems, leading into my current shitpile. She was pretty cool but she kept coming back to, "we need to organize your life with activities, (insert this guys name that i forgot) is really good at finding activities in the community etc." I am quite interested, except it seemed a bit like she was selling something to me in those points. I'm really glad that I could really talk to someone who would listen and who isn't really a part of my life. I have no idea whether she understood everything or not, but people who have this occupation seem to have an archetype for my condition and she mangaged to fit me into one (there goes that word again).

For some reason I want to remain a calm, composed person, without letting on that I am really distressed. I feel this pressure from people to be the person that I have been for the past year. When I "reveal" some of the real things I'm thinking they tend to shy away from me. I am strange which I do not deny, but I enjoy having people to talk to - so I need to tone it down sometimes. I realize that I have freaked and scared away some people in the past.

Anyway, friends are great (this is said after Patty agreed to type my bio questions) yay!

-Littleleafer

Libertarianism and Maternal Relationships

Just today I decided to proclaim myself a libertarian in the car. My mom went onto all this garble about how libertarians are so arrogant and selfish blahblahblah. And here I am expressing my political views and she just goes on and on always finishing with "well you can believe whatever you want" but wtf? I said that I did not believe that the welfare system is working out right now and she goes on another tangent about how school lunches are a form of welfare and without that students could not perform as well...-.- seriously. And I'm like, "well your stereotyping now" and she's like "no I'm archatyping, they're different" obviously she's doing both. I don't understand how she can be such a hypocrite.

I got that from her. She just does everything wrong and annoying. But at the end of the day I feel really bad at the way I treat her. Even though everything is her fault I feel horrible that I act like that towards her. It's instinct. My brother is inheriting this from me and she used to get it at work...Sometimes it makes me almost cry thinking that I may turn into that kind of person...

-PityLeafer

PS: THE ELECTION IS TOMORROW! I know that I'm being all excited and stuff, but now that I'm old enough to really understand whats going on I'm just like - FUCK! The fate of the next potentially 8 years will be decided tomorrow. I know that I'm all "Fuck mainstream candidates" and shit, but I really really hope that Obama will win. I don't want that weird ass nasally grandpa to be the representative of my country for four years. And if that nasalman gets sick, we'll have an idiot who portrays the female "stereotype" in the most ridiculousness way. Also the State elections. No on prop 8! forgive me for repeating this (I know that its all over the city). I'd like to see someone in SF (particularly the Castro) having a sign that says "YES ON PROP 8".