Wednesday, January 28, 2009


I really feel like I'm wasting my life. But then I logically point out to myself that I don't really have anything else worth doing either. However I do feel that I need to find something. Despite my continuous preaching to find a passion, I truly want to do something that I feel is going to have a positive outcome in the end. I have accepted the fact that I am a wannabe, but perhaps eventually, my "want-to-be" prattle will turn out to be something. The small child who said that she wanted to be a doctor one day may really one day become a doctor. There are people who are either born or come into a certain place in life, such as rich people or I dunno, plumbers. One cannot choose who they are born from - but it is possible for one to achieve a higher place in life than that person born to status. And a plumber who inherits the fathers business doesn't want to be a plumber, but it just ends up that way. In the end, the only people who aren't wannabe's are people born into their position, and don't strive to change their fates. This post doesn't really make sense, because I was trying to justify my babble.

ciao mein

Monday, January 26, 2009


I really want to go on a long journey... across the world. I need to experience life. I wish that I could go back in time, where I could be a lonely traveler, making my way through trials and tests... never compromising my beliefs. Only moving for the sake of exploration and knowledge.

Will - gretchen yanover

the greatest inspiration yet

Sunday, January 25, 2009


I'm so excited! My desktop Macintosh just arrived, and it is a great moment for humankind - haha, although that may sound's AWESOMEEEE! I'm so happy! The screen is enormous, and all these good programs have been predownloaded for me.

Anyway, my day was a bit disappointing (except for this) because I went to Congress and I didn't win (albeit expectedly). I didn't really write any points down and I got an hour of sleep last night...HOWEVER! There is always the possibility of winning, but that didn't happen for me. Megumi is always so frickin unlucky...never winning in bingo...raffles or anything! Moving on. I really feel like a bad person because I base so many things on my own pet peeves and irritations. Pour example, today in Congress, there was this girl who talked funny and she was weird, so I didn't like her, probably because combined with her speech impairment, she acted condescending when she had no idea what she was talking about. i hate people who are all confident and stuff but are saying the wrong things. grrr

I slept as soon as I got home...until about 1am. (I got back at 4pm) Now that I think about it..that's 9hours!


and just because it's awesome...I'll post a picture of myself all happy from the camera on the computer!

Saturday, January 3, 2009


I went to San Jose for a couple nights. I ate a lot of good food, and I went swimming. It was pretty good. I love the TV, I watched many episodes of Law & Order and "What Not to Wear" on TLC. So, on this trip I realized that I was merely one body in corporate, distraught, disfigured America. I thought it was funny to see ugly people get makeovers and watch them being slaughtered by the show hosts. They didn't even look that much better in the end. Why does the American psyche enjoy these human degrading shows? I also watched on TLC, a show about morbidly obese people, it was nasty...but I laughed.

A moment of silence to brood over my stupidity.

I love scifi. Stargate Atlantis is my new salvation. I used to like the TV show Weeds, but then in the third season or something, they showed naked people - it was nasty so I stopped.