I feel like I'm wasting time. Time is money...right? My dad told me today that my greatest resource right now is time. I suppose he's right. I mean, besides all the material resources I have, such as technology and...paper, I don't really have any advantages on a personal level. I was thinking today that I am a really pathetic person. I was obsessed at some point with this weird mysterious weirdo, and well, I'm over it now, but I can't help but analyze the situation in hindsight. Why would I become addicted to such an odd manifestation? Perhaps it's my lack of self-esteem. I have read that people, especially females, are preyed on by people because of their lack of self-confidence. At some point I felt that I was on the top of the world...I had the advantages of intelligence and that of general awesomeness. I wish that feelings like that would remain and the feelings of loneliness and despair didn't catch up to me, bringing me down once again.